I didn’t count on that

how humiliating being sick is

how compassionate some people can be

how humiliating getting better can be

how realizing you voluntarily took a seat as opposed to taking a stand in your life – for your self can be quite depressing but knowing you can make a different choice can be or quite liberating

when it is 2 weeks before you realize you haven’t thought of him, not once , and that is not only ok, but very welcome.